Why why why…Anxious!!

In the face of threat, i fear….i go anxious,

faced by challenge, i think of possible solutions….i go anxious,

before i start a race, i race in my heart,

before the start of this new shift in this new paradigm….

before i said hallo to you sited there, as i gathered the courage……

before the first date..

before that kiss…

before that memorable connection without any silk cover…

before, before, before before…..pointless but before

why, why, why but why……anxious!

 

Is this a torture discarded upon me by fate?

or do i have to get it right every time but why?

pointless…anxious!

siting in this plane before take off, frightened of the flight,

thinking between this funny conversation, will this joke make sense or is my last?

pointless!..its just a date not rocket science, pointless!!

why, why, why…but why…anxious!

 

You ruin my moments,

its ok but then not,

this inglorious sweet morning glory should be good,

can’t i enjoy without you showing up?

i like the chest thump on this soft bumps,

like a drum the heart beats sound, i must be in paradise..

but why now? can’t i maintain my calm as i come by?

i don’t want to be graphical on this day,

they might accuse me of being naughty and alienated,

so bear with me, the anxious me and sick about it.

for once i shall be careful with my word choice, so bear with me

but what pointless is,

and i don’t know why…anxious!!

 

I don’t want day break to come, otherwise it will ruin my paradise,

yet in silence i know that every other night saw a day break,

and every rising sun surely sunk-even in the nord!

pointless…but why, why why anxious!!

don’t ask me why, i am also wondering why,

why why why..anxious

anyway the sun is vague this days and the night is long,

a young day looms and anxious is powerless in the gaze of vague,

so why why why and the answer is vivid..anxious!!